you hurt me

i dont understand why i am still angry. i dont know if i am more hurt that the fact that you walked away or the reasons why you walked away... i thought you were a good guy.. i thought that the more i loved you the more you would love me.. i was wrong. mabye i am angry at myself for believing you loved me.. i honestly saw myself walking down the isle with you.. i dreamed nothing else. for the first time i truly can say i opened myself up to someone.. i gave you all of me.. every part that i had been hiding for so long.. i dont hate you... if fact i still very much love you.. but i shouldnt.. and i know that i should be moving on with my life.. but what you did was wrong.. and i thought that you were better person then that.. why do i still care.. why do i still love you.